37/38 weeks!

Once again I'm writing this from a hospital bed. On Tuesday I was readmitted for 10 days of hospital bedrest because it makes the doctor feel better. Mild preeclampsia but he feels better. I'm glad someone does! This doctor I learned is a flip flopper & will change his info to suit himself. He told me he should've admitted me a long time ago because I'm doing better which is a total lie. My labs didn't get better & those are his determining factor. My protein levels jumped 200+ in 4 days but....that doesn't matter because my labs; platelets, liver, & kidney; are fine. I keep getting told they "are trying to walk the fine line of my safety & the baby's safety". Trust me, baby is completely safe! I'm decent too. "Each day is golden". I can understand that but I guess mom's happiness & care doesn't matter. "I know it's hard but it's best for baby." Hard doesn't even describe it. It is the most stressful emotional roller coaster ride & it's not ending for another week. I've cried more these last 4 days then I have my entire pregnancy. I was & am told to report any symptoms/issues. When I do I get *shrug* "it's pregnancy". Please note: I am likely to bitchslap anyone who uses one of these phrases to me again.

Hospitals bring out the very worst in you. Your anger, your frustrations, every single ache & pain which gets magnified thanks to these contraptions called beds! Your body hurts so badly & all they have in Tylenol. "It's pregnancy". No, it's pregnancy on fire! I was told to move about my room to relieve strong back pain. I laughed! I'm not even allowed in the hallway. For MILD preeclampsia, where my labs aren't changing. They're not getting worse, they are still "great" or "good".

Happy Note: Baby is great! She now fights the monitors every time. Hides, kicks, hits, everything to show her displeasure. 20-30 min sections usually last 45-60 mins. Even I by the end am beyond done! I've had contractions, none of which I feel. The most I've had was 4 in 30 mins once. Sometimes I have none. They are just practice ones or easy ones to start prepping the body. If I watch the monitor I usually don't have them but if I relax & not watch then sometimes I'll have a few. Active baby is now uncomfortable baby. I admit I've asked her to stop moving around because it just was so uncomfortable. Especially with my muscles being so sensitive due to the hospital stay in the first place. :( I sound like a mean ungrateful mother but that is not my intentions. Everything just plain HURTS!

Back to good. I will be a mother sometime within/around a week. Silva(known liar) now says between 37-38 weeks. The original timeline was 38 weeks. I have a strong feeling he's teasing me & giving me false hope of an earlier induction. I am being inducted on Friday, in 7 days, if we an earlier one than yay.

I want an August Baby! 1st or 2nd! 8/1/12 or 8/2/12. Not that I get a pick. I'm doing another 24 hr urine today/tomorrow & that MAY be enough to decide induction. I'm not dilusional!!! I know labs have to move for labor to move! I can't wait to see the results tomorrow afternoon. I want to see if my protein levels will truly double in only 8 days. Well see!

In any case we are a mere 7 days, maybe less, from holding our beauitful baby girl! Our pretty much named baby girl. :) KMC or AMC! :) Our Everything & More! God's Amazing Miracle, his gift to us!

36/37 weeks

We'll... this is how I have to start writing my entries because my doctor refuses to listen or even consider my due date. Half the people agree with doctor & half the people say "well, mothers know best". A lot of good that does me, "knowing best" because I'm not listened too. I had an OB appt yesterday because of high bp. It was suppose to just be a bp check but ultimately was a regular appt. Strep test & all. My BP was really high thr first time & slightly the second. I wanted to be heard so I spoke up about a few recent things. They got the labs I did the Thursday & jackasses did it wrong so I was sent to be directly admitted to MC(maternal child) for at least 24 hrs. Here I sit at 3 am wide awake & not a happy camper. The lab messed up my 24 urine test so I am literally stuck here so I can do it in hospital. I did not screw up the at home version, the lab did. The intial blood work & urine screen here were perfect & I had 0, zero, proteins in my urine. Didn't matter, I'm stuck til at least 2-3pm, better not be later! Like I said not happy!
Should it come back my 24 shows protein which literally no one thinks it will & the level is over 300. Yeah, have to go from 0 to 300 in 24 hrs, then I'll be a July mommy because they will induce me today. High BP + Protein = preeclampsia and the only cure is baby is born!

So good parts I guess. Baby Girl is officially 6 lbs. 6 exactly! I was monitored twice yesterday & the second time she was sooooo active. Her hb got up to 180 a few times because she was just having fun (or pissed at being monitored). She is currently heads down. Good & bad since it'd be nice to plan her DD. Have an actual date. I'm hoping with my history of high bp they'll induce me a week or two early. Early/Mid August would be perfect. Because that's when I figured she'd be coming. :) Ok, typing this on my phone has literally taken me nearly 2 hrs. Sorry for any & all typos or sentences that don't make sense!

Update: I was thankfully released from the hospital but with not good news.
Good news first. Baby girl continues to be SO active. Daddy was finally there for one of our monitor sessions and he heard miss attitude's heartbeat loud & clear. Also the kicks she gave the monitors. She is so healthy & definitely not affected by any of my issues. I tell you, this little one is the toughest baby I know. I will forever be grateful for how strong of a fighter she is!
Bad News: My protein results came back over 300 for the 24 hrs. 369 in fact, now that I see it it's an interesting number. The only reason I was not kept there was because the doctor on call is not my OB. One of my OBs won't be there til Monday so thanfully Dr. Holder(on call doc) decided to let me wait out the weekend at home, not in a hospital bed, which I'm sure ALL the nurses are thankful for. I won't lie, I was really bitchy. I got 3 hours of sleep last night & that was with an ambien. I was highly emotional in there too, I cried more than once. I'm hoping Dr. Silva/Stephens let me stay on just bedrest for another week or two & I will fight to stay home unless they plan to actually induce me. I myself was born 3 weeks early due to induction but not for medical reasons, thank goodness. :) Hopefully if I am induced she'll come out completely ready to tackle the world (no problems breathing or anything).

Another happy note. My mom sent the box on Thursday so I was worried (with the recent issues) that I would get it in time for baby girl to wear the same dress I did 28.5 years ago. But today when we got home the box was sitting on the porch. Truly I think God helped because it should've taken more than 2 days, especially for a box that big. The dress is in the washer now & will promptly go into the baby bag. Also, my husband is taking great care of me! Strict bedrest with bathroom priviledges. Couch is acceptable & I'll sneak to the computer when I can(like now). :)

So, this Mama to be may just be a Momma by this weekend. Our daughter may be born this week. Time will tell.

36 weeks!

Here we are, 4 weeks from my due date! So surreal. I hit the big 8 month mark on the 11th! This last week each day I feel it more & more. My goodness! It's going to be a long 4 weeks if she makes us wait that long. :) Still deciding between 2 names but one of them got changed. My husband likes this A name better than the previous one. So, we kinda have his pick & my pick. He agreed the other night to use my pick so she should be named right?! Nope, because I don't know what name will fit her when she's here. Most likely it'll be the name I choose years & years ago but just maybe she'll look like his pick & the one that seems to big for our tiny little girl. We'll see but I'm not going to be selfish & throw out his pick just because he's ok with not using it. Like I said, maybe that name will suit her.

Ticker Info: 1)Supposedly she's 20 inch, 6 1/2 lbs, & ready for launch. Still working on the immune system. Wow, this ticker is not very correct! 2) Around 19 inches, weigh at least 6 lbs & gaining at least 1/2 oz a day. Ok.... I guess it's showing now that she is a week behind in her growth. At my ultrasound on Thursday our little girl was about 5lbs 7 oz. I know that's an estimate but still, she's small. I've thought about finally giving in & moving to the doctor's DD which is 6 days after mine, she's measuring on course with that DD. But I know for sure when we did our thing. My family came 2 days later & yeah....NO! Not happening! :) So, I am keeping my DD & if I go over, I go over. :) I may go over doctor's DD too. She is so stubborn! She was once again facing the floor so no picture that day. :( I was hoping to get to see her face & maybe that'd help name her but alas, no! She is our daughter for sure! :) She was also head down on Thursday so yay! I know she can still move & I've definitely felt her move. There were 2 nights of such activity it was insane. She was everywhere & pressing on everything.

Pregnancy: Man oh man! Everything is getting hard. Some days I feel awesome & normal. Some days it is so painfully obvious I'm pregnant. Sleep is hit or miss, pain is usual, headaches are more common, exhaustiveness is a most of the time thing. I've had no braxton hicks, no baby hiccups, no ribs kicks, but I've had pelvic pain. Oh, pelvic pain. I waddle like crazy some days. :) I finally definitely look pregnant! Pregnancy sucks sometimes but it's such an amazing experience. I can see why some people miss it, once they forget about all the limitations & pain. :) Kicks are the best thing is the world. When they're not in the ribs(for those that experienced that), in bladder, or in a very sore muscle!!! :)

35 weeks

Cha-Really?! 35 seems big too. I think every week from now on will be big. I can't believe we're 5 weeks from our due date. My app says we're 35 days from it. Cha-really?! Crazy! :) Some days are great & I feel completely normal & other days are torture and I don't think I'll make it to the end. I had an issue with my pelvic bone I guess not being aligned right & it was the most excruciating pain I've ever experienced. Walking was barely possible & took every bit of strength & will power. Thankfully it was only like that for a day & got better each day to where I was a normal girl again yesterday. Today....zombie! I feel so exhausted today. :) Awesome part of pregnancy, I finally have long thick nails. Actually they're a tiny bit annoying. :)

Tickers, what do they say today: Ticker 1: Gaining an ounce a day, brain development carries on at a super fast pace. Ticker 2: I'm a little less than 19 inches tall & all my organ systems are complete & being finalized.
That's so surreal. So So Surreal! She's probably not 19 inches, I think she'll be a short baby but who knows, she does have a tall daddy. Short mommy, tall daddy. :)

Welp, I don't know what else to write. It was an non-eventful week, nothing exciting to report. Plus my brain is only functioning at half mass because of the zombie-ism. Should be a fun day. :)