39 weeks

39 weeks! Days from having this baby & sadly I expected him to be here. I had my membranes swept on Monday & in all honesty I thought I would've been dilated to a 3-4 since 2 weeks ago I was at 2. She swept my membranes but said I was only a 1. WHAT! A 1? How do you un-dilated? I was also 50% efface which would excite me if I were actually somewhat dilated. Boo!!! The appt was so long, I wasn't called back until about a half hour past my appt time, then I sat in the room for a good 5 mins before the nurse even came back to just do my blood pressure. I figured since it was my last week the ultrasound wouldn't be a big deal because honestly, in my mind, it's pointless. Baby is active, there has been no complications, why do I need a BBP check? So I had to go get one of those after my appt and I was so frustrated by it all that I came home in a bad mood. My mom seems to think I need to kiss her ass & she threw a fit when I told her "I'm pissed & don't want to talk about it". I didn't want too, I was really upset & frustrated. I don't know how the bleep I undilated so what's the point in asking?! I moved my Csection from Thursday to Saturday because Mike has a 3 day but now I regret it. I would be less than 24 hrs away from having a son & it's now 3 days away. I've lost my mucus plug over the last almost 24 hours & it's really disgusting! Really really disgusting! No bloody show, just some blood on Monday from the sweeping. I think I've had very minor contractions/Braxton hicks but they lead nowhere. Waa Waa! Guess baby boy isn't coming on his own, even with the sweeping encouragement. I have my last appt tomorrow & I'm not sure if I should even ask for another sweep. I want too, I kind of want one last chance to have him but we'll see. I'm just kind of discouraged about this whole labor.

In any case, I will have a son within 3 days & we will be a family of 4 (5 with Hershey). I will be holding my son in within 72 hours! It will be the longest 3 days of my life but still, 3 days! Katie is so excited & keeps talking about going to the hospital & baby brother. Family of 4 by June 13th!

Also, a kind of fun thing is Katie was born on the 31st & Baby Boy will be born on the 13th! That's kind of really cool in my book!

38 Weeks!

Woo hoo! 38 weeks! I am finally ready for this kid to get out. It may just be today, June 4th, but I am miserable. Mr. has hit nerves & I doubled over in pain. The middle of my back hurts so badly, like a huge knot is in it. I can't wait til my husband is home to help with Katie. My mom arrived yesterday but honestly I feel like I'm having to step up even more. My kid associates visitors with being more entertained by people & not as much by herself. So, yup, I'm having to step up because my mom keeps telling Katie no when it comes to playing in the kitchen or outside. :(

I am having my membrane swept on Monday (June 8th) & will have a planned Csection either Thurs or Saturday, depending on what I chose, if the sweeping doesn't work. I sort of hope labor starts due to sweeping because I am scared to death of a Csection. I am also scared to go into labor because then I might end up with an emergency Csection instead of planning, better, one. Ahhhh! My baby girl will be a big sister officially next week & we will be a family of 4 (5 with dog). Yay!

Sorry for the short blog, I'm trying to type & entertain Katie. Little miss loves to brush her teeth want to brush her teeth. :)