What a week!

Mike's work week was only 4 days long but I swear it was one of the longest week ever. It was mentally & physically exhausting. Even Mike's first day off was tiring & exhausting because of moving. When stressed I become a bitch & with this move and getting a call that a realtor wants to show the house in less than 24 hrs is stress-the fuck-ful! Point being I was a monster mom at times & my poor kid had to deal with it. My kid always has to deal with my bad moods & sometimes their bad. But this kid, I tell you, is the most compassionate & caring person I know. The most forgiving. After yelling & getting onto her all day, she would hug me and give me love. She would snap me out of the bad & make me realize how amazing she was. I really am so lucky & thankful to my daughter. She's so full of attitude, personality, & energy.

We got to see the baby this week. My amazing & LONG gender scan. We got to see it all on a big screen TV mounted on the wall. Katie knew or at least pretended to know that she was seeing her baby brother/sister on the screen. She heard a baby cry in the hallway/other room and she said "I hear it". Haha. I was so amazed seeing baby's head, body, legs, arms, spine! The spine was something so crazy & special, I'm not sure why but I was so amazed everytime I saw the spine. Baby was moving all around at first but then little buttheat didn't want to show us the goods. I thought I saw something & the tech did too but she couldn't say for sure. She said at some angles she saw boy & some she saw girl.  Baby's legs were tucked under the belly, then bent & tucked under the butt. Part of the problem was baby's foot was right in front of the crotch. After 45 mins & my back starting to kill me she got another tech. I was honestly ok with going home not knowing yet. 18 weeks, while in the 18-20 weeks gender scan time frame, seemed early. I know some girls find out at 15-16 weeks but I don't think I was fully ready to know. 15 weeks, that's so crazy to me to find out gender. Anyways, the second tech comes in & I see the same thing I had seen before and I was right. The second tech got a good picture & we found out what our new little munchkin was. :)
Maybe it's because I know this is our last baby I realized I would be a little upset whether baby was boy or girl. I wanted a boy, a son, to pass down the family name and for Mike to have his son. Every man should get a son, if he's lucky enough. I also wanted a mama's boy. So I wanted a son very badly. I wanted one of each, a perfect little family. I also realized I wanted a girl, for the simple fact that I wanted Katie to get the same special bond I have with my sister. I wanted Katie to have a sister. And having another little girl to dress up wouldn't be so bad. I had 2 dreams where I was holding a new baby girl with my beautiful big girl running around. My dreams last time were right, they must be this time too. I started settling into the idea having a girl & really that's not bad. I literally have 15(or so, I haven't counted actually) diaper boxes of baby girl clothes. I have almost everything for a girl so having a girl won't bankrupt us. Not that a boy would but we'd need clothes on top of a new carseat & boy blankets/towels/etc. Having a boy also means going through & selling 99.9% of my baby girl clothes. This is our last baby & there is a part of me that wants another, hopes for another, but we shouldn't have another. I'm only 18 weeks & I'm already sad for this to be my last time. How pathetic is that?

So, time for the big reveal. What is munchkin love #2?! We're having a baby boy. His measurement were from 17wks 3 days to 18wks. He weighed 8 ounces! My half pound baby boy. I felt so many hits & kicks during the scan, it was so truly amazing! I'm in disbelief we're having a boy, I really thought it was going to be a girl. Last time we found out girl (which is what I wanted & knew all along) I kept gravitating towards boy stuff. Boy names, boy clothes. This time we're having a boy & I keep gravitating towards girl stuff. I find that so weird. I am excited to start shopping for our son but also scared, overwhelmed. I can't wait to feel kicks all the time, feel him move, see him more on ultrasounds. Pick his name though that truly is going to suck. We're not good at picking/deciding on names. We're both so stubborn & baby names seems to be the touchiest subject ever for us. Good luck baby on being named before you're born. :)

Life

Life has been so hectic & crazy. I had my physical on the 23rd & I asked to hear the baby on Doppler. She wasn't able to find/hear baby so she was kind enough to get the ultrasound. My doctor has a crappy old one so all you literally see is movement. She wasn't trained on ultrasounds so she couldn't tell me if it was a heart beating or the baby moving. Movement is movement & it gave me a little peace of mind. I had my regular appt on the 30th & she found baby on Doppler. Unfortunately loud doctor walked in seconds after finding baby & I was distracted. She only kept the Doppler on for maybe 10-15 seconds total, including the interrupting doctor. I heard my baby love though, a healthy heartbeat. It was the first time I felt like I could breathe & relax this pregnancy. I heard his/her actual heartbeat. I have no idea what the number was though. Right when I was going to ask she was pulling it away. The visit with the doctor was 2 minutes tops. This is that, up your meds, any questions? Nope, next appt & gender scan in a few weeks. Goodbye. Um, ok. So, yeah, our gender is coming up shortly, I'll be 18 weeks. I'm tempted to do gender reveal photos before hand so I make the cards as soon as we find out & can get them sent on their way asap. I'd obviously have to do boy & girl photos so they'd be ready. I'm sure, as with my luck, the better photos will be the wrong gender. Maybe photoshop will be my friend & I could change the color if necessary. Haha. Or just do white glitter so I can add whatever color needs. Not sure how well that'd work.

I am amazed all the time by Katie. She is so smart & so curious, annoyingly so at times. Don't take that wrong, I love her with all my heart, it's just sometimes she's a lot to handle. She seems to know if you're frazzled & does everything she can to make you more frazzled. Sometimes I really wish we lived closer to family so I could get a break every now & then. Also, I'd love her to get more family time, it kills me knowing our families are missing out on so much of her life. The joy of military life I suppose. Katie's personality is so big. She is so silly & lovey. Lately she'll just walk up to you & snuggle for a few seconds. She'll rub her face against your belly or chest & say "I love you, awww", it reminds me of a cat. She sometimes will randomly kiss you and she's pretty good of giving you kiss if you ask. Unless she's mad at you, then she won't. :( She's got my attitude & I think her daddy's personality. I can't believe our baby girl is almost 2.5. Where is the time going?! January 7th will be 3 years since we found out we were expecting her/a baby. Though I knew instantly we were having a girl, I just knew.

We're wading into the new home/moving water. We signed papers for our home on post on Dec 31st & moved all baby items to the new home on Friday(2nd). We have 3 more weekends to move our stuff, the 24th is our BIG move day(all the big/heavy stuff). The last week of the month we'll spending cleaning & painting this (current) home. I am incredibly stressed with the move & kind of in general. We have so much to do, it's crazy. I want to do it all but also just ignore it all. Haha. It'll get done, hopefully sooner rather than later though. :)  The more we do early, the less stress there will be the end of the month.

Well I guess that's about it. Have a beautiful day.