What a week!

Mike's work week was only 4 days long but I swear it was one of the longest week ever. It was mentally & physically exhausting. Even Mike's first day off was tiring & exhausting because of moving. When stressed I become a bitch & with this move and getting a call that a realtor wants to show the house in less than 24 hrs is stress-the fuck-ful! Point being I was a monster mom at times & my poor kid had to deal with it. My kid always has to deal with my bad moods & sometimes their bad. But this kid, I tell you, is the most compassionate & caring person I know. The most forgiving. After yelling & getting onto her all day, she would hug me and give me love. She would snap me out of the bad & make me realize how amazing she was. I really am so lucky & thankful to my daughter. She's so full of attitude, personality, & energy.

We got to see the baby this week. My amazing & LONG gender scan. We got to see it all on a big screen TV mounted on the wall. Katie knew or at least pretended to know that she was seeing her baby brother/sister on the screen. She heard a baby cry in the hallway/other room and she said "I hear it". Haha. I was so amazed seeing baby's head, body, legs, arms, spine! The spine was something so crazy & special, I'm not sure why but I was so amazed everytime I saw the spine. Baby was moving all around at first but then little buttheat didn't want to show us the goods. I thought I saw something & the tech did too but she couldn't say for sure. She said at some angles she saw boy & some she saw girl.  Baby's legs were tucked under the belly, then bent & tucked under the butt. Part of the problem was baby's foot was right in front of the crotch. After 45 mins & my back starting to kill me she got another tech. I was honestly ok with going home not knowing yet. 18 weeks, while in the 18-20 weeks gender scan time frame, seemed early. I know some girls find out at 15-16 weeks but I don't think I was fully ready to know. 15 weeks, that's so crazy to me to find out gender. Anyways, the second tech comes in & I see the same thing I had seen before and I was right. The second tech got a good picture & we found out what our new little munchkin was. :)
Maybe it's because I know this is our last baby I realized I would be a little upset whether baby was boy or girl. I wanted a boy, a son, to pass down the family name and for Mike to have his son. Every man should get a son, if he's lucky enough. I also wanted a mama's boy. So I wanted a son very badly. I wanted one of each, a perfect little family. I also realized I wanted a girl, for the simple fact that I wanted Katie to get the same special bond I have with my sister. I wanted Katie to have a sister. And having another little girl to dress up wouldn't be so bad. I had 2 dreams where I was holding a new baby girl with my beautiful big girl running around. My dreams last time were right, they must be this time too. I started settling into the idea having a girl & really that's not bad. I literally have 15(or so, I haven't counted actually) diaper boxes of baby girl clothes. I have almost everything for a girl so having a girl won't bankrupt us. Not that a boy would but we'd need clothes on top of a new carseat & boy blankets/towels/etc. Having a boy also means going through & selling 99.9% of my baby girl clothes. This is our last baby & there is a part of me that wants another, hopes for another, but we shouldn't have another. I'm only 18 weeks & I'm already sad for this to be my last time. How pathetic is that?

So, time for the big reveal. What is munchkin love #2?! We're having a baby boy. His measurement were from 17wks 3 days to 18wks. He weighed 8 ounces! My half pound baby boy. I felt so many hits & kicks during the scan, it was so truly amazing! I'm in disbelief we're having a boy, I really thought it was going to be a girl. Last time we found out girl (which is what I wanted & knew all along) I kept gravitating towards boy stuff. Boy names, boy clothes. This time we're having a boy & I keep gravitating towards girl stuff. I find that so weird. I am excited to start shopping for our son but also scared, overwhelmed. I can't wait to feel kicks all the time, feel him move, see him more on ultrasounds. Pick his name though that truly is going to suck. We're not good at picking/deciding on names. We're both so stubborn & baby names seems to be the touchiest subject ever for us. Good luck baby on being named before you're born. :)