"No one else will ever know the strength of my love for you. After all, you're the only one who knows what my heart sounds like from the inside."

Saturday, June 9, 2012

31 weeks

Here we are for another installment of the week update. 31 weeks! Sleep is hit or miss really. This morning is the first time my insomnia has really hit. And by insomnia I mean being awake enough to actually get out of bed. I'm not including the mornings were I toss & turn for hours. Apparently baby girl has hair because I have heartburn this morning. It could've also been the meaty pizza or the buffalo wings which was oh so tasty. I also think baby girl likes spicy foods because she sure likes to jump around after spicy foods. Another thing she's been fond of lately is laying as low as she can go! Oh, I'm not fighting a rib monster like so many, I am fighting a pelvic monster. I worry sometimes that she'll push or stretch in such a way that she starts labor early. We've had a talk, she must wait at least another 5-6 weeks to make sure she's big & healthy enough. I still find it amazing that she seems to listen to me & respond. Anytime I'm concerned about not feeling her I just talk to her & ask her to move/kick & within a minute she'll do just that. Call me crazy but I swear she understands. Maybe she just likes being talked too but half the time I'm whispering so maybe there is some ESP going on. Mike has asked more about her lately. He'll ask if she moved that day or how much she's moved. She's definitely not as active as she has been but she's still squirming once in a while. I wish she squirmed more so he could feel her. A few judo kicks in the evenings for daddy to feel!

Baby's room/stuff is coming along. I washed a few loads of baby laundry this week. I washed her newborn clothes, socks, hats, mittens, burp clothes, & lots of blankets-receiving & bed ones. I also washed her car seat fabric parts. I need to wash her playmat since the person who I bought it from didn't care to pre-wash it. Yuck! I just ordered replacement parts for my breast pump. All in all, her stuff is coming together. We still need a swing but actually, that might be solved. Now it's time for ALL the little stuff. We do have some of the little stuff already but I know there is a ton of stuff we still need. Shopping trip! I keep wanting to involve Mike in the shopping but he's not big on baby shopping really. Maybe I can get him to tag along on Sunday if I feel like doing the little things shopping.

Ticker Time: Nearly 4 lbs & 17 inches. Holy cow! I figured she'd still be close to 3 lbs & chances are she's about 3.5 lbs right now but still, WOW! Bigger & Bigger she gets. She better stay a little small. I don't want no Jessica Simpson 10 lb baby popping out of me! :)

Well that's about it. Still in amazement that we're about 2 months from holding our very own baby girl. OUR baby girl. Not a niece, not a friend's baby, not staring at a stranger's baby wishing she were mine. Our Daughter! I can't wait! But I gladly will! At least a few more weeks. :)

Monday, June 4, 2012

30 weeks(& a few days)

30 weeks....seriously?! I am in the single week countdown phase now. 9 weeks * days. There are still times when it's not real & it seems like a cruel joke. There are still times I don't feel pregnant because she's sleeping and I don't feel her. My stomach definitely sticks out more & I notice it touching/hitting the sink/counters. Driving my parent's suburban it was very obvious because my stomach touched their steering wheel. Going through ALL of our baby shower stuff it was obvious & overwhelming. We put most of it away & then I'm left with odds & ends, thinking to myself "where the *bleep* do I put these?!". Nesting is necessary, you have to make room for EVERYTHING you need for a baby. The sad thing is we're not even done getting everything. I still need plenty & it seems we have nowhere to put it. Deep Breath, it'll be ok.

Ticker info: 1: 17 inches & 3.5 lbs 2: 3lbs & 16inches. Ok so my baby is on track with the second ticker, I guess I'll go by that one from now on. How I know she's more on with that one, My Sonogram!

I had another sonogram on Thursday & I took my parents. Baby Girl weighed 2lbs 10oz (+/- 6oz). I tell people she stays low in my belly and they don't believe me. Granted she was high for my OB appt on Tuesday & she had to get the HB from my upper belly which was cool. Thursday Baby Girl was curled up low. Always curled up on ultrasound day. She's stubborn too, she's always facing my spine on u.s. day. The tech FINALLY got a good picture of her face which was really nice but that's all we really got to see. The u.s. are for growth so they don't really care about showing you your baby and it's so hard to see anything on it. When they say "that's a femur" you just say "ok..." & trust them. Anywho, her picture. Here she is:

Well, I guess that's about all. Nothing new really. Sleep is still hit or miss and the exhaustion comes & goes. I think baths will soon be a thing of the past because they are starting to hurt. :( I'll probably give them a few more tries before finally switching to showers. :) That's all. Tschuess!

Saturday, May 26, 2012

29 weeks

29 weeks. Seriously?! Not much is new really since I last wrote. She's active when she wants to be. Stubborn like both of her parents! Mike actually talked to her yesterday. Well, he said something which was kinda mean or off the wall, I seriously don't remember what, but he corrected himself/apologized to her. He wasn't even that close to my belly so most likely she didn't hear him in the first place but apparently he didn't want her to think that's how he really felt. It was most likely about her lack of moving for him. :) He's very impatient!

Ticker news: 16 inches & 3 lbs. She'll probably be about 3 lbs by our ultrasound on Thursday. Head hair is getting thicker, if she has any. :) She can open & close her eyes. Funny because I told Mike last night that I thought I read that she can open her eyes now. Apparently ticker 2 says now. Ticker 2 also says only 15.5 inches & nearly 3. Probably more true since she is a smaller baby. :)

In 2-3 days all my baby shower stuff will be here. The other day I went through & put away all the baby clothes I had. NB & 0-3 are in her dresser in our room & the bigger sizes are in the spare dresser. I'll start washing stuff when my parents leave next weekend. I'll probably just wash the immediate size. What's in her dresser. Most likely I'll get bored during the next 2 1/2 months & wash bigger sizes too. This may be weird but I got a square laundry basket at my shower & I'm so excited to use it. I always just carry the clean clothes to the bed to fold & dirty clothes are thrown in the corner of our hallway or in the laundry room. The basket will be strictly baby girl's! I'm so excited to use it. I've bought a few more items from wives here. I may get very lucky because someone has a baby girl just ahead of what I should be buying. I just bought 18 outfits, mostly 3 months, so her 3 month drawer has a nice amount of clothes now. Not including baby shower ones. By the time she comes/right after she comes, they should be selling 6 month sizes! SCORE! Oh, I paid a whole $14 for all 18 outfits! Cute outfits too!

Anyways, that's about it. Nothing too exciting, just slowly getting ready for our girl. Hopefully we'll discuss names again soon. Poor baby needs a name!

Thursday, May 24, 2012

Baby Shower

For all who've been following or care my/our baby shower was on Saturday. It is STILL surreal to me & I even had a moment of 'this isn't real'. Everyone insists I have a baby bump but it's because of the belt right under my boobs. It kinda formed the bump if you made the fabric hug your body like the dress did. I even got a "are you sure it's not twins?". Thanks a lot, as if I didn't feel fat enough. It was fun though & my sister and mom put so much work into it. There was a pretty good turn out of people & definitely of presents. The worst thing at a baby shower is the opening of presents. Goodness Gracious it takes FOREVER & you're bored by the time it's only half over. I mean for the people watching. Welp, if you're me then it pertains to the opening too. I wasn't bored but I knew it was taking forever & I did my best to hurry up towards the end. I got some really great gifts!!! The number 1 was a handmade rocker from Mike's grandpa Russ. It is AMAZING! Even has a seat cushion, not just some hard wooden seat. I kept muttering "wow". I was stunned!!! If the photog would've shot my face you would've seen it. Teary eyes & stunned face. I got lots of clothes, some essentials, an adorable diaper bag, a few felt tied blankets, a baby bullet(oh heck yes), a baby doll for the baby, and I'm sure I'm forgetting lots. I got lots of diapers thanks to a diaper raffle. There was a lot of 'daddy love' items & only 1-2 with 'mommy love'. Meaning 'I Love ......'. Mostly it was daddy stuff. I told Mike that apparently everyone thinks she'll love him more. He replies "well duh!". She will be daddy's girl & he will be wrapped around her little finger! Want to see a few pictures? Here you go!

So, that was my shower. I'm sure I'm forgetting a lot of stuff but oh well. It was a great day! I still feel like we need SOOOO much stuff. Working on that though. Can't wait til my parents come on Monday/Tuesday & I can start unpacking all her stuff & getting her room more ready for her. It'll be here before you know it.

Saturday, May 19, 2012

28 weeks

Hello 3rd Trimester, Hello! Is this for real? Am I seriously in my 3rd & final trimester for a pregnancy I still can't believe is happening? Oh it's happening & there is definitely a bouncy kicky punchy little girl in there. I think for the first time I had my "in my ribs/hard to breathe" activity from her. It was weird because it felt like she was in my ribs but she was kicking/hitting my lower stomach. She must've been STRETCHED out & being a little brat. I'm guess all of my eating made her mighty full too & she needed a little stretching before beddy night time. She's more & more active. I feel her all throughout the day now which is awesome.

Baby Ticker News: One says she's 2 1/2 lbs & becaming cramped. I'll feel more jabs & kicks. (Yup!) It shows a pumpkin for her size. A pumpy-kin!!! Another shows an eggplant. Definitely not as fun as a pumpkin. Another ticker says she's 15 inches. Wowza, bigger & bigger she gets. Yes, I know that's how it happens but it's still surreal. That not only am I pregnant, what crazy!, but I am QUITE pregnant & have a 2.5 lb 15 inch (or getting close to those numbers) baby girl in my belly. Our baby girl! Our nameless baby girl! :)

Today is my baby shower and while I feel a little guilty because I know others who don't get to have one I am so excited! My sister seriously put in so much planning & work. There is a definite theme & I know the invites match the thank you cards & also the decorations for the shower. JUNGLE THEME! I think it might be fischer price jungle. I got a small glimpse of the cake yesterday & it's A-MAZING. I wasn't suppose to see but my dad came around the corner & didn't know it's a surprise to me. It's a 2 layer fondant covered cake. A zebra lower level & even better, a TIGER top level! I also saw there are fondant animals. I know there is a lion or I think there is. I saw/remember zebra stripes, tigers stripes, & a little lion. I know it's silly but it makes me so incredibly thankful that they got me a fancy fondant cake. I would've been fine & plenty happy with a Costco half sheet cake, I expected that kind of cake. But I've always wanted a fancy fondant cake & it's seriously the most amazing beautiful PERFECT cake for me/my shower! It has tiger stripes ya'll! Tiger Stripes! (I love tigers)And zebra stripes and jungle animals! Seriously perfect! Now I wish I would've bought my sister something to give to her at the end of the shower. I know this day is going to be so incredibly special because she's making it so. She's making sure it's the best baby shower ever. I can't believe the planning & thought she put into this! For her baby sister! :) Down to the homemade sugar scrub party favors & the game prizes which are in jungle animal patterned bags! Oh, I'll be wearing a tiger striped dress to the party too, courtesy of my sister. Even my dress matches the theme! :)

This pregnancy keeps getting better & better & I can't wait to meet our baby girl. She will be so loved & so so spoiled. 3 more months or so until she's in my arms & I will enjoy every second. Though I will admit I'll be mighty anxious once our house is filled with all the baby stuff & gifts from today. Mighty Anxious!!! :)

Sunday, May 13, 2012

Mother's Day

My first real Mother's Day! Yes I've celebrated with our dogs, they are my babies after all, but it was always bittersweet. I realized that celebrating with my dogs may be the only kind of Mother's Day I ever got but hoped it wouldn't be the case. I can't believe this year, 2012, is finally my year to celebrate it. I am a Mom, I am growing our Daughter!
So, I hit 27 weeks this week! Crazy, I am one week away from the 3rd Trimester! Even bigger is I hit 6 months!!! I am 6 months pregnant!!! Some people go by every 4 weeks equal a month but that makes pregnancy 10 months which irks me. I go by on the 11th I hit the month milestone. Crazy!!!

About our daughter: (from ticker) Over 2 lbs & adding lots of healthy baby fat. Her eyelashes have started! :) Another ticker says it's 2.4 lbs! Wowza! :)

I'm not sure if my husband has any special surprises for me which I won't lie, I do hope so, but the last 2 days have been amazing! Mike took a 4 day weekend so Friday we went to the movies, lunch, did grocery shopping, & then chilled. Yesterday...yesterday was the mega awesome day!!! First off Mike was in a cleaning mood. He cleaned up his part of the spare closet(baby's closet), cleaned the computer room, did the huge amount of dishes, & even cooked dinner which was amazingly good! More awesome was BABY TIMES!!! We (He) put together the crib & the baby's dresser/changing table. We moved the PnP(pack n play) & the dresser into our room. Our Daughter has invaded our house. :) It's so weird seeing the pnp & the dresser in our room. It's weird seeing the crib and mattress set up & ready for sheets! My baby shower is next week so lots more stuff will be added to that room in a few weeks(when my parents come). Best part of yesterday though. Our Daughter! After some ice cream she became VERY active. To where I felt her moving! Actually moving around with the occasional kick. I called Mike over & of course he was impatient and told me he didn't feel anything after 5 seconds. I told him that she was super active, I felt her moving in there. Thinking "how can you not? she's doing gymnastics in there or something". About 30 seconds later he finally felt our daughter's "judo kick" for the first time. It was a judo kick too, she has NEVER kicked that freaking hard. He looked at me because he thought I did it. Flinched my stomach or something. Nope, that was all our girl, she kicked her father! He felt a second kick too & then was done being patient. I don't know why he thinks I'd try faking a kick from her. I actually was concentrating on my breathing & relaxing so that anything he felt would be 100% her. Baby Girl continued to stay active for the rest of night. From around 8 until bedtime at midnight. At least every 45 mins or so I'd feel some movements & kicks. 2 am bathroom break, a few kicks. 6 am wake up, kicks started again. She's kicking me as I type. It's really nice to feel her so active because for around last 10 days she's been super shy & minimally active.

Great Great few days. Hit 27 weeks, Hit 6 MONTHS, & Mike felt his first kick! Truly amazing few days!

Saturday, May 5, 2012

26 Weeks

Here we are, another week down. Another week closer to meeting our baby girl! Our nameless baby girl. My husband seems to hate every name I pick. Pick & fall in love with. His latest veto I gave up for about 12 hrs (including sleep time) but I seriously love that name & it still is my pick. We've yet to discuss names. I think he's overwhelmed with all we need to buy and the cost of it all. We finally bought a crib yesterday. It'll be here by Friday which is crazy! Not sure if Mike will put it up or if I'll get my dad to help when they come in 3+ weeks. :) I also want to pull the plug on the pack n play I want from Target! Hoping it fits in our car or I'll have to steal a friend's jeep for an hr or so. Well, she's already agreed to help me so it's not stealing. Unless I kick her out of the car while we're driving. JUST KIDDING! :) I think Mike is overwhelmed with everything though. I understand I've gotten like that too. But his parents are suppose to be paying for the crib & my parents bought the stroller/carseat combo, Yardsale Find! Oh, I got my first baby present from a friend here. So awesome! Yet so surreal! Baby Girl hasn't been as active the last few days which is starting to concern me. I still feel her from time to time but no super hard hurt mommy kicks lately. Also, I don't feel pregnant. You should not be having "holy crap, am I really pregnant?" moments when you're 25-26 weeks! :)

About baby girl: Our ticker says 14.5 inches! 2 lbs & plumping up! Our baby girl will soon be 2 lbs, that's crazy! :)

Symptoms: Sore Breasts, Heartburn, Aches & Pains, Stiffness, Sleep problems. Last night was the first time it was uncomfortable to take a bath. I'm a bath girl, always will be, but I may have to switch to showers soon. Little girl was making the bath not very enjoyable. :)

Well I think that's all. We're obviously way behind with getting stuff for our daughter/the nursery but my baby shower is in 2 weeks & we should be a bunch of stuff then. Can't wait! :)

P.S. Playard with Newborn Napper bought & assembled! How surreal! :)