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Monday, November 17, 2014

No Title

I can't think of a snappy or even to the point title. Well I guess miserable would do it but that's a sucky title, plus I might have to use that later. We have hit the terrible 2's or at least the please shoot me WHINEY 2's. My house would be full of cheese if she got cheese with her whines. Wake up to bedtime is 75% unhappiness from her, complete my life is over meltdowns. She doesn't get to eat what she wants, has to eat what I want her to, can't watch her show for the umpteen time, won't change the channel/show after 5 minutes of the current, requested, cartoon. Doesn't want to get dressed, doesn't want to put her undies & pants back on after pee, hates all her pajamas. I've seriously thought "if we lived close to home I'd SO send you to grandma's right now". I need a break. I probably even just go visit said grandma/mom's house. Just having the extra help & plus kids love their grandmas & grandmas spoil kids. It has been so cold here & I freeze non-stop so no way in heck I'm going outside to let her run off steam. Today's high is 32. It is currently 32 now. So, it's going to get colder, 28, before it gets warmer, 32, again. It's going to drop to 20 by 2am & finally a low of 19 by 7am. My husband is way too busy today so I have to try & make a doctor's appt tomorrow. I'm a Cali girl, we were in AZ a year ago, I'm not use to this COLD! I am telling you, I am always under a blanket. My heater is set to 72 during the day & I still freeze to death, under my mink blanket. Enough with the cold & back to the 2 yr old. I should interact with her (makes it sound like I just ignore her, I don't) but I am so darn tired all the time and I usually feel like crap. Headaches, backaches, nausea, heartburn, it's been 1-2 something all the time. If I'm lucky I get all those during the day on top of being exhausted. I woke up this morning with my esophagus burning, heartburn from hell. From lunch. Not even dinner, it was from lunch. When I wake up with heartburn that usually means I'll *tmi* get sick with nothing stomach. I puke up bile which hurts & taste ..... I can't even describe it. It is the most vile thing ever. The most bile thing ever *ba ba bum!*.  Seriously though, it's horrendous. And now that I think of it, when that happens I'm nauseous all day after. This all happened yesterday too. At first, I couldn't eat much which I thought "hey, awesome, weight loss". Now I'm constantly hungry. I try really hard to eat healthy. At least get in some fruits & veggies, more than I use too. I try to not randomly snack on pretzels or whatever. Some days are good, some are bad. So, all in all, this pregnancy kind of sucks, major balls, at times. I can't wait to feel normal again, I'm sure my daughter can't wait either. :) 10 weeks down. Only 30 to go! Woo hoo!

Well, off to snuggle in bed for hopefully a few more hours. Maybe 2 if I'm lucky! Hopefully I'll sleep, I need it! :)

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