Scary

Today has been by far the scariest day of this whole pregnancy. I started bleeding, not spotting but bleeding! I panicked but then realized I need to stay calm & see if it continued. Welp, 30 mins later & a little more blood I call the OB. I'm told to call back in 30 mins if the doctor hasn't called me. Well, apparently it was an answering service, not the actual office. BOO! Right before calling I go to the bathroom again. I can't tell you how much you have to pee when you're trying to NOT to! A big amount again & I am officially panicking. So I call at 1:50, get put on hold for a while, but then told to come in. I just kept going over how they couldn't find the heartbeat on doppler & how I didn't see it on the u.s. like they said. Get there, sign it, & wait. Oh lord, please don't make me wait!!! It was only about 5 mins but it seemed like forever. Get back there, they try comforting me by telling me bleeding isn't that uncommon in pregnancy. Yea right people, you're not suppose to bleed. Spot, I understand, but bleed?! Ok Ok, enough of miss paranoid. Doctor comes in & it's time for dildo cam, hehe.

Up pops our baby. Our squirmy wormy baby! I taped it on my phone & it was such a short time, I wish I could've watched it for longer! Video doesn't do it justice, seeing it in person is the most amazing thing ever! On the video you can't see it but I saw the heart beating! Amazing doesn't describe it at all! Surreal, it's so surreal!

The doctor couldn't find the reason for my bleeding but as he said "you're definitely bleeding". Yes thank you, I had noticed. He was really nice though & told me he'd come do this every day if he had too. Don't think the OB office would appreciate me coming in every day though.

Wow, I saw our baby for the very first time & it truly was unbelievable. Someone pinch me please!