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Today I am 18 weeks! 4 months into this pregnancy which seems amazing! I'm no longer going to go by my phone app because it says that baby right now at 18 weeks should be...

5-5.8 inches long & weigh 5.3 ounces

The ticker on my page says baby should be 10 inches head to toe, no weight given.
I looked at the ticker the day of my appt & it said at 17 weeks baby was suppose to be 6 inches & 7 ounces. At my appt baby weighed 7 ounces so she/he truly is measuring nearly a week small. I'm keeping my DD though. :)

Here is Baby C! Her(or his) beautiful face)

Please pinch me!

My appt on Thursday. Oh goodness! Chances are I will end up having to go back to the high risk doctors but I seriously hope it's not for a long time! Or at least not THAT doctor. He was a total dick & made me feel like complete crap. He basically told me I will have a hard & bad pregnancy no matter what. All my numbers looked good but those weren't good enough. "Normal" wasn't good enough. The fact I lost 30 lbs before pregnancy & lost 10 more in 12 weeks didn't even pentrate his ear. I've since started gaining back those 10 back but only about half so far. Didn't matter. He made me feel like crap about myself & that I will screw this up.

The actual ultrasound. It hurt & I basically just got to listen to Mike & the nurse. The nurse only turned the screen for about 15-20 seconds to show me my jack-knifed baby. My(our) Baby! :) It sucked not getting to watch her(him) move around but there is a benefit of only getting to listen & feel. I got to hear the amazement in Mike's voice, the first time he's seen his child. Mike got to see our baby scratch it's head to which he informed me I'm growing a monkey, not a human. :) I got to feel how big the baby was because head was at the bottom of my uterus & legs were at the top. It amazed me the paddle(or whatever) had to be moved SO much from head to legs. Then baby sommersaulted & head was at the top while baby jack-knifed itself. We only got 3 pictures & 2 were front facing creepy alien looking ones. The third is shown. I asked about gender but she told me it was too early for them to do an anatomy scan. She did try to look & it was a perfect time since baby was jack-knifed/clearly showing an open picture of the private area but baby just wasn't in the right area to be able to get the correct angle. Oh well, no hurry on finding out. I'm curious but I can wait a few more weeks.

All in all, baby is healthy and seeing the baby again on ultrasound makes it more real. Still in denial which is silly at 18 weeks but I just can't believe our dream is really coming true. 6 years & it's happening. 4 months in even! :)