Interesting

Being pregnant is so interesting. Saturday morning when I finally went back to bed I had an amazing little experience. First off, Baby C had woke up & apparently didn't want me to sleep. I love being pregnant & feeling our baby moving but sleep time is SLEEP time! What can I do though? I just let her/him settle down & go to sleep. Baby & I were falling asleep with my fur-son(dog) Hersh laying directly in front of me with his paws resting on my stomach. Back paws at the bottom of my stomach & front paws on the top. Well, Mr. Hersh started dreaming & twitching/kicking me which got a response from baby! So very weird but amazing. I had the biggest smile on my face feeling them interact in a way. Mike says they were fighting. Great, siblings already fighting. :) Hersh will be a great big furry brother. We've already seen him with babies & he is a huge mama dog, very protective & attentive. I've always wanted to see him in action with our kids. It's nice with nephews but I so badly wanted it to be our kids he was watching over. Now it will be. :)

Mike has touched my belly for the first time. He saw me pushing on my stomach & asked what I was doing. I told him you can feel the difference between just fat & the uterus. There is also a little knot on my uterus which not sure what that is but I could google it. Anyways, I had Mike feel for himself and he was surprised by the difference. I can't wait until you can actually start feeling the kicks on the outside so he can feel them too. I know some girls already can at this stage but my extra layer is causing that delay a little. I've felt a few kicks but they are not consistent enough to call him over to feel yet. Baby isn't cooperating either, He/She has not been as active the last few days. I still feel a strong kick now & then but I haven't felt him/her playing jungle gym much. Makes me want to run out to get a stethoscope to listen for the heartbeat. :)

Well, I guess that's about it. The ever fun bloodwork, tests, & appts continue. :)

22 Weeks!

22 weeks! Still surreal. I know I sound like a record but every day, every week is surreal. We have just under 2 weeks until we know what we're having & I seriously can't wait. It's funny because I always said I'd never find out what I was having, I wanted a delivery surprise! No way, no how was I finding out! When we first found out we were pregnant Mike told me he wanted to find out and I told him I didn't. He never pushed me, just indicated he wanted to know what we were having & that was enough. Obviously I wanted to know too because I agreed we would. I guess Mike didn't realize because he was telling co-workers we're not finding out the sex. Um, yes we are! I want to know so badly. Now I'm getting slack from other delivery day surprisers & have even felt somewhat attacked for my decision to find out. "There are so few surprises nowadays & delivery surprises make that day so special. You shouldn't find out". There will never be any bigger surprise than the one I got on January 7th! Ok, finding out the sex will also be extremely huge!!! Guess what, So Will Delivery Day! No Day & I mean NO DAY will be more special than the day we deliver our son or daughter! Ok, enough blabbing. To the important stuff! Baby!!!

Baby should be measuring 11.5 inches & weigh A POUND! Ticker says "Busy with baby workouts & playing somersaults". Oh so true. This little one is more & more active. The "I'm going to keep you awake", the "I'm going to jump on your bladder even though you just went", the "I'm going to stretch out & push against your muscle so you flinch in pain". It's so odd & so amazing. The other day I felt the baby moving so I put my hand under my pants & underwear, on my bare belly. Mike saw & asked if I was Al Bundee. I told him "no, baby is moving & I'm trying to feel it on the outside". He seemed surprised & happy. I think yesterday I finally for sure felt a kick/movement on the outside. Once you can regularly feel it on the outside I'll have Mike feel for them. :)

So, the fun stuff of pregnancy! Insomnia is back & I hate it. All week I've tossed & turned all freaking night long. I usually get 2-3 hours of good sleep, then get crappy sleep for a 3-4, & finally get back to good around 3-4 am. Well, it makes getting up at 5 for Curves hard! Also by the end of the week I'm fully exhausted by 9-10 am. Then again, I woke up at 4 am yesterday. It's not 3:30 & I've been wide awake since 2. Apparently my husband having trouble sleeping is enough to take me from tossing & turning sleep to WIDE AWAKE! Ugh! Next fun! My sore boobs are gone so I guess they're done growing for now. :) Oh heartburn. Glorious heartburn. It is almost instant with any spicy food. Spicy chicken sandwich, oh yes, spicy chips, oh yes, spicy anything! How funny that it took 21 weeks to start having issues with spicy food. Get use to it baby, mommy loves spicy! :) Mommy! :) So weird!

Well this is a long ramble-fest & yes it's mostly because I am wide awake at 3 am. I send out 2 Wishes!
Happy 22 weeks Baby! Nearly 5 months! &
Happy 30th Birthday Michael! My Baby Daddy!!!

OB Appt

I knew this would be a big appt because I knew obstetrix was going to suggest a bunch of appts & bloodwork. Goodness Gracious did they!!! I had a huge list of bloodwork including another glucose test which I have an appt for on Thursday. One day I need to do an EKG at the hospital because of my history of high blood pressure which was lower today then at my last appt! Yay! I go to Tucson on the 17th to check my adrenal gland. Then the 19th I have a growth &, thankfully because I spoke up, an anatomy scan! Finally we'll know whether we're growing a chico or chica! I can not wait! 16 days when you're already 21 weeks is TORTURE!!! Mike says "they'll REALLY be able to tell if it's a boy or girl". They could already tell now! Why must I wait?!?! Grrrr! I already have 2 more growth scans scheduled for May & July.

My appt today was fine. It was quick, aside from the endless waiting in between nurse & doctor. Baby's heartbeat was 159! Yup, still girl! I will be surprised if it's a boy but I suppose I'll also be surprised if it's a girl! I'll be surprised if I'm right & I'll be surprised if I'm wrong. I'm SOOOOOOO ready to be surprised & to see our munchkin! 16 days please be tomorrow! :)

Pregnancy wise update, why not. Heartburn, oh my gosh! It's been constant the last few days. I LOVE spicy food, LOVE it, but it's killing me. There are new spicy doritos that look like tubes & they are delicious but instant heartburn. My breasts have been sore the last week or two too. Still have "kill me" nipples when I get a chill. I've felt the baby basically every day for the last 7-10 days. Last night he/she decided it was party time at bedtime. Quite distracting when you're trying to sleep. I think that's about it for symptoms. Aside from the pregnancy brain & unbalancedness. :)

21 weeks

Seriously? I pre-wrote the 20 week update last week because we were heading out of town for a family funeral. Ugh, that long drive was killer! Anyways, I didn't get time to really to think about the fact I was halfway through my pregnancy. I hadn't been feeling the baby either but in the last week he/she has become so active! It's so crazy! 21 week! A week past halfway!!! Geesh! As I lay in bed Thursday night I started to think about the fact I'm pregnant. That I'm actually feeling the baby & that I'm halfway home! It's still, even at 21 weeks, SURREAL! :) So Surreal!

We got a lot of family time. Sometimes I was driven crazy & it was odd talking about "our baby" & all things pertaining to a pregnancy/parenthood but it was nice. I got to say "We're 20 weeks, halfway!" which is amazing but I didn't actually really think about that fact. My aunt told Mike he has to start talking to the baby. My fat roll was rubbed by a few different people which was kinda embarrassing but whatever. Most importantly I got to see all the stuff that has been bought for us/our baby. OUR BABY! Baby stuff for OUR Baby! Did I mention it's still surreal & I still am in denial. I went baby shopping with my  mom which was interesting. It was more of me hitting the baby section while we were shopping. I wish I could've baby shopped with my sister. I officially bought my FIRST maternity clothes. Not just a size bigger that'll be cute when I'm huge but actual maternity clothes bought from Motherhood. Mike & I went to the mall & we walked by Motherhood. I knew it was there & had no plans on going in there but when we were there something pulled me in. I got one pair of shorts & 2 shirts. Yay for Plus Size Motherhood clothes!!! I also put in the 7 month baby bump which really was so unbelievable. To see myself with that big of a bump & to know someday I'll look like that. It won't be wishing or hoping, it'll be reality. :) So amazing. I HAVE to take new pictures because I feel like I've blown up the last 2 weeks. I totally forgot to take week 20 pictures which makes me sad but I'll take week 21 pictures. Wow, week 21 pictures!!! :) The pictures are just for my reference until I actually start looking pregnant. Like really pregnant, not just "she may be pregnant but she's a big girl so who knows". :)

Baby Stats...... Well.... :)
He or She should be about 11 inches & weigh 15 ounces! Wow, our big baby!!! :)

19 & 20 weeks

There is alot going on here so I'm going to combine 2 weeks into one blog. Lazy I know!

At 19 weeks Baby can sleep & DREAM! :) What are you dreaming about Baby C? Ticker says Baby is 10.5 inches & 10.5 ounces! Oh goodness! He/She probably will hit this weight sometime towards the end of this week since he/she is smaller. But still, oh my gosh! :) Baby may also start hearing my heart beat & hear mumbled sounds. Hello Baby C!

Symptons: Fatigue, Nausea, Acne, Sensitive skin, Stretch marks, sensitive & painful nipples!

At 20 weeks baby's movements should become stronger because bones are hardening! Yay! I've felt some movement the last few weeks but not a ton. It'll be nice to start to feel them more! I might be able to tell when baby is sleeping or awake. :) Ticker says Baby should be 10.5 inches & weigh 13 ounces! Once again, probably will hit this about the end of 20 weeks. :) How exciting!

18

Today I am 18 weeks! 4 months into this pregnancy which seems amazing! I'm no longer going to go by my phone app because it says that baby right now at 18 weeks should be...

5-5.8 inches long & weigh 5.3 ounces

The ticker on my page says baby should be 10 inches head to toe, no weight given.
I looked at the ticker the day of my appt & it said at 17 weeks baby was suppose to be 6 inches & 7 ounces. At my appt baby weighed 7 ounces so she/he truly is measuring nearly a week small. I'm keeping my DD though. :)

Here is Baby C! Her(or his) beautiful face)

Please pinch me!

My appt on Thursday. Oh goodness! Chances are I will end up having to go back to the high risk doctors but I seriously hope it's not for a long time! Or at least not THAT doctor. He was a total dick & made me feel like complete crap. He basically told me I will have a hard & bad pregnancy no matter what. All my numbers looked good but those weren't good enough. "Normal" wasn't good enough. The fact I lost 30 lbs before pregnancy & lost 10 more in 12 weeks didn't even pentrate his ear. I've since started gaining back those 10 back but only about half so far. Didn't matter. He made me feel like crap about myself & that I will screw this up.

The actual ultrasound. It hurt & I basically just got to listen to Mike & the nurse. The nurse only turned the screen for about 15-20 seconds to show me my jack-knifed baby. My(our) Baby! :) It sucked not getting to watch her(him) move around but there is a benefit of only getting to listen & feel. I got to hear the amazement in Mike's voice, the first time he's seen his child. Mike got to see our baby scratch it's head to which he informed me I'm growing a monkey, not a human. :) I got to feel how big the baby was because head was at the bottom of my uterus & legs were at the top. It amazed me the paddle(or whatever) had to be moved SO much from head to legs. Then baby sommersaulted & head was at the top while baby jack-knifed itself. We only got 3 pictures & 2 were front facing creepy alien looking ones. The third is shown. I asked about gender but she told me it was too early for them to do an anatomy scan. She did try to look & it was a perfect time since baby was jack-knifed/clearly showing an open picture of the private area but baby just wasn't in the right area to be able to get the correct angle. Oh well, no hurry on finding out. I'm curious but I can wait a few more weeks.

All in all, baby is healthy and seeing the baby again on ultrasound makes it more real. Still in denial which is silly at 18 weeks but I just can't believe our dream is really coming true. 6 years & it's happening. 4 months in even! :)

17 weeks!

Baby C should be measuring about 4.5 to 5 inches CRL or the size of an onion! That's awesome! Baby C should weigh about 3.5 ounces! :)

This last week hasn't been too bad. I did my 16 wk update on Tuesday/Wednesday so you know what has happened those days. Doctor's appt. The no energy was better this last week, thank goodness. My husband doesn't understand how I can be so exhausted after doing nothing. He doesn't understand you're not normal when pregnant, you're so many things at different times. Walking Zombie, Highly Irritable, Irrational, Bitchy, Plotting a beat down. Talking to friends helps, get out that steam. If people didn't know me & just heard me lately they'd think I completely hated my husband & they'd wonder why I was with him. Then again, probably anyone not pregnant currently & hearing me might think the same thing. My husband has been driving me crazy. Ok, I said it! We also have good times & happy times. Today we're heading to Tucson & I'm hoping we can get in some Baby or Maternity Shopping. Ok mostly I want bras that fit. I doubt I'll find new clothes that fit any better than my current ones but who knows. Not easy big girl maternity shopping. Anywho, I'll insist on some ME shopping if I have the energy to do so. Darn unpredictable energy levels. :)

It's weird but I've kinda gone back to being in denial about being pregnant. I don't feel pregnant & saying I'm pregnant seems like a cruel joke, like fantasy. Who am I trying to pretend I'm pregnant, that our dreams are coming true? It freaks me out for it not to feel real again. There was a time when it felt real & amazing. Maybe it's just a defensive mechanicism. I've always been able to picture myself pregnant & with a child. I can't now. I can't picture myself hugely pregnant. It scares me that I can't picture it. Maybe I'm just freaked out currently. It'll get real again, especially on Thursday. I am SO ready to look pregnant, to feel the baby move, to see the baby move. I'm so ready for the next step. I don't want to rush the pregnancy but I'm just ready to FEEL it! :)